Sticking Around

I've decided that regardless of what happens, I'm staying in Virginia for the time being. Looking at houses and jobs in my part of Oregon has put a serious damper on my desire to return home. Starting home prices hover at around $300,000. Foreclosures are around $100,000 and up. Jobs pay around $13 an hour. Even if I were to acquire a job at Mercedes or BMW, the market isn't there, so flat rate would end up being about the same as hourly. It looks like it's just not in the cards. I have a good job here. If this job turns sour, I can get another good one. I can buy a foreclosed home for around $30,000 and fix it up. All my connections are here. It just seems smarter to stick around. Getting out of a bad situation has also made life more fun here in Hampton Roads. Sure, it still has its problems, but what place doesn't? I want to get back into music as well, and there really isn't a scene aside from the community band that I can get into it. I know my family will be disappointed, but I need to take care of me. The church I'm going to is awesome also. I'm planning on going to the amazon rainforest among cannibals and other life threatening perils. Life is worth living again! I really want to take the trombone back up and get into the jazz scene. I want to learn swing and tap dance. I want to become a private pilot. I need to start practicing my accordion again and start taking lessons. If I fall in love, great; but she needs to be with me and align with my goals. Support me. Love me. Not get all pissed off because I'm really eccentric and like odd things. I've been listening to jazz again. I can't believe it! I thought that died in me. My ex never liked listening to my music. She never liked doing the things I enjoy. She never supported my aspirations. All she wanted me to do was make more money so we could make more money. And that obviously didn't work because we were broke the entire time. Every time I used my card my asshole puckered while I hoped that it wouldn't be declined. I'm never doing that again, no matter what! I own 3 cars! I have an old, awesome Econoline that I'm going to turn into a one man camper and go weekends to the west side of Virginia for some good hiking and camping. My BMW is the most manly vehicle I've ever owned and I love it. And I just bought a 1994 Mercedes E320 wagon. And it's green; my favourite colour! I can't let all these little crappy situations get me down. I'm a happy guy! I'm going to remain happy. Of course I get down. Of course I have doubts about my abilities. Of course I have my weaknesses. But the Lord is showing me the way and I have a very bright future. Sally forth!